Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Goodbye Chris.

Perhaps the most important thing I have learned over the years is to be thankful.  Oftentimes I used to feel so self-important or so self-righteous that I concentrate more on being butt hurt for oh so many little nonsensical or unimportant things.  Imperfections dashed against my unrealistic ideals clouded my view -- my understanding of the surrounding beauty that is life which was in fact accentuated and not diminished by the fallibility that is part of humanity.

A nice person died today, and had I learned my lesson much earlier I probably would have known him a lot better.  And though familiarity sometimes breeds contempt, I really think we could have been good friends.   He could have been my friend instead of being just an acquaintance who somehow in the randomness that is life has become a significant even though distant part of mine.

So I just would like to say thank you Chris; meeting you have made me learned a lot of things about myself.  Made me realize a lot of my behavior and indirectly made me improve it.
And thank you for what you have done for my mother and my brothers.  For welcoming them and teaching them some about life.

From the bottom of my heart, "Thank you!"

Too late I know, and the words written here are perhaps more for my own sake than anyone else's.  All I can do now is pay it forward by being genuinely nice and helpful to the people around me -- and part of it is simply because, to us, you were.

R.I.P.  Christopher Dower 2013.